Okay, the title was random...as is this journal, lol. I was tired of the old one!

update on KuroManga, I am not really working on it right now but am working on another story that was kind of random...XD

I still need to rewrite my ReBoot fanfic/crossover, but I may not get to that anytime soon.

I got my ReBoot posters in the mail today, YAY! (I need to take a picture of that wall now, lol)

I want to get a cosplay costume of one of my characters by next MTAC, maybe getting them from [link] , friends with deviantART, awesome!

I really don't need to buy anymore posters till I move elsewhere, my walls can't hold much more...roftlol...and I should focus more on getting moer anime/manga and getting money for cons...Still don't have a job...0.o...and I need to focus on my work.

that's it for now I'm going to raid You-tube and veg out for a while!

Well this week's had a lot of surprises, for one my friend moved in with me. For another, i discovered how exellent i am at treditional colouring, seriously i need to upload that stuff.

And though hardly any one listens to what i say in my journal, I still communicate with people here.

i'm not the happiest tree in the woods right now.

I fail at myspace.

I can only create, not draw full pages of consecutive manga, I cant write very well. I've got all these ideas and can't share them.

i'm lazy...

I have no job.

Fifth Dimension Studios has hit an enourmous roadblock, the fact that my other artists are not yet as devoted as I am...we may just go our own ways.

im not good at digital colour...of course i don't have much experience.

I feel down right not happy.

I'm stuck agian...I've lost my muse, and that's not good...I don't know what the heck to do... I need the push in the right direction, lately i try to do a project and can't finish what i start but then even in thye company of my friends i seem to have no passion for any thing....except ReBoot but that's not good enough... im normally a very calm person but now i seem to feel only nothing........i can't describe what this feels like... i want to move from the place im living now, and i feel oppressed by that.

I am not patient enough to do digital coloring for my artwork...I'm too lazy to upload stuff here...I don't feel the same as i did before I feel detacthed,...it is like feeling an enormous weight on my back and i can barely breathe.

I feel very lonely, even around others it's like they're not there at all...

AND NO ONE GIVES A DAMN!!!!! THEY WILL NEVER CARE! I JUST CAN"T STAND WAITING ON EVERYTHING IT IS LIKE TIME IS FROZEN!!!

That feeling you get once you have cleared one obstacle and then your on the bottom of the next level...lik climbing a cliff, then you are on your belly before you can stand, and to stand you must over come gravity, and your own weight.

That's how i feel, some times it can be too much but others it can be that push in the right direction.